Tori Spelling and Dean McDermott's marriage problems has caused the actor to quit their reality show, "True Tori". According to a report from Access Hollywood, the former "Beverly Hills 90210" star's husband admitted that he actually thought of suicide.

Dean McDermott revealed: "I'm not going to continue with the show... We have five more shows left... I can't do this anymore."

"I can't keep opening a vein, opening my soul and sharing my feelings and thoughts and demons with the world," he explained.

Tori Spelling's husband admitted that he does not even watch the said Lifetime show. "I don't watch it, I can't. It's really difficult... I can't do it any more, for my soul," he admitted.

Tori Spelling and Dean McDermott's marriage has been through a lot recently - from issues about infidelity, as well as alcohol and drug abuse.

The actor told Access Hollywood: "The fact that I cheated on my wife, I wish never happened. (And) I wish my alcohol and drug use hadn't gotten out of control."

"I still love her to death and that's why we're still together," Dean McDermott said.

Nonetheless, "True Tori" supposedly helped fix Tori Spelling and Dean McDermott's marriage. "The show has been great. I've learned a lot of things about myself, my relationship. It's not all doom and gloom. There's a lot of good in the show," he pointed out.

Dean McDermott narrated: "I've learned a lot from this whole process. From the affair, from doing the show... I almost lost everything, everything that means anything to me. I don't want to ever do that again.

The actor even revealed how all his troubles made him contemplate suicide. He narrated: "I don't ever want to be in that dark place again where I wanted to take my life... I was driving around in my truck with a loaded 9 mm. I was put on a 5150 at the UCLA psych ward. "