Actress Kim Sae Ron's letter to the late ASTRO member Moonbin has been made public, providing an intimate glimpse into her grief and struggles in the aftermath of his passing.
Garo Sero Research Institute posted a diary entry letter dated April 27, 2023. Kim, who had been close friends with Moonbin since their childhood as actors, expressed deep sorrow and regret in the message.
"Bin, I miss you. I tried to choose death because things were so difficult, but then I heard news about you," Kim wrote, as quoted by Koreaboo. "I know better than anyone just how scary and lonely that decision must've been, so I can't bear to ask you why."
She went on to describe the moments leading up to his passing, revealing that she had considered calling him but ultimately did not. "I regret that so much. I probably couldn't have stopped you, but you might've postponed it for a day," she wrote.
Kim also reflected on how ASTRO members were devastated by Moonbin's death on April 19, 2023. "Seeing Jinwoo (Jinjin) and Myungjun oppa (MJ) try to smile, seeing Dongmin (Cha Eunwoo) break down, seeing Minhyuk (Rocky) so solemn, it makes me break down too."
She expressed her internal struggle, revealing that she has postponed her thoughts of suicide. "I've decided to postpone my death, just a little, because I have to protect Sua and the other members. Sanha said he would protect me. I used to be the most worried about the maknae, but he's now become a reliable adult."
In the letter, Kim voiced her frustration with public scrutiny, the pressures of her career, and the weight of expectations. "I am so disappointed and disgusted by how I'm not improving, by how the media is targeting me with unverified attacks, how I am still unsatisfied."
She concluded with a heartfelt farewell: "Rest in peace, Bin. If it's the path that you've taken, wherever it is, I'm sure it's shining and bright. I respect all your choices and I am cheering you on. I'm sorry for not being able to compliment you endlessly and for not being able to hug you. I love you. See you soon. Wait for me."
Kim's letter has since drawn attention from fans and the public, highlighting the deep bonds between the two stars and the ongoing impact of Moonbin's passing on those who knew and loved him.
