2013 should have been a big one for Lady Gaga as she released an excellent album that showcased a different side of her artistry - a more "normal" side, in contrast to her larger-than-life personas, but the 27-year old shock artist revealed that it wasn't exactly a good year.
Speaking openly to Harper's Magazine about the struggles she have gone through, the "Poker Face" singer revealed that 2013 was the year her depression became prominent.
"I was exhausted fighting people off. I couldn't even feel my own heartbeat. I was angry, cynical, and had this deep sadness like an anchor dragging everywhere I go. I just didn't feel like fighting anymore. I didn't feel like standing up for myself one more time-to one more person who lied to me," Gaga said in the Harper Magazine's interview.
"I was exhausted fighting people off. I couldn't even feel my own heartbeat. I was angry, cynical and had this deep sadness like an anchor dragging everywhere I go. I just didn't feel like fighting anymore. I didn't feel like standing up for myself one more time-to one more person who lied to me."
There were not much details about the implied betrayal of someone from her inner circle, but the resilient singer wouldn't give up, and explained what made her gain composure again.
"But January 1, I woke up, started crying again, and I looked in the mirror and said, 'I know you don't want to fight. I know you think you can't, but you've done this before. I know it hurts, but you won't survive this depression.'...I learned that my sadness never destroyed what was great about me. You just have to go back to that greatness, find that one little light that's left. I'm lucky I found one little glimmer stored away," the "Artpop" diva explained.
Talking about the changes she has gone through since her rise to fame in 2008, Lady Gaga admitted to having an eating disorder.
"I am better with food. I don't have an eating disorder anymore. I'm also better at not letting people take advantage of me. Five years ago, when I spotted someone with a hidden agenda, I allowed them to stay around me," she admitted on the same interview.
The "Just Dance" superstar need to mope no more since 2014 have started to fall in the right places with her recent nomination for the Annual GLAAD Media Awards' "Outstanding Music Artist Prize."
According to the GLAAD website, the awards "recognize and honor media for their fair, accurate and inclusive representations of the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender community and the issues that affect their lives."
Lady Gaga is competing with Vampire Weekend, Tegan and Sara, Goldfrapp and Elton John on the same category.
